HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT ABOUT GIVING UP ON LIFE? IF SO, WHEN AND WHY?
Yeah, I'm pretty sure we've all wanted a way out at one time or another.
I can remember specifically one night. I was a teenager and I was so so sad.
I thought I was fat and I wanted a boyfriend and couldn't get one and so I figured I was super ugly and my home life wasn't perfect and I really can't remember what was so dramatic that I wanted to end it all but I really did.
I can remember praying that God would just take me home and I could be out of the pain and sadness. And I seriously thought about doing it myself but then I realized that I probably wouldn't go to heaven if I did. And then I realized my mom wasn't ready for me to leave yet. And my brothers and grandparents would be so sad and miss me a lot.
So anyway, moral of the story is that I didn't. There was always a bigger something worth living for. And I always thought about how sad my mom and friends would be if I was gone. And it always kept me here.
And truth be told, my life wasn't bad at all. I really can't think about what was so bad that would make me even consider ending it. And maybe that's why. Me just being hormonal and sad and maybe a little silly.
Yeah, I'm pretty sure we've all wanted a way out at one time or another.
I can remember specifically one night. I was a teenager and I was so so sad.
I thought I was fat and I wanted a boyfriend and couldn't get one and so I figured I was super ugly and my home life wasn't perfect and I really can't remember what was so dramatic that I wanted to end it all but I really did.
I can remember praying that God would just take me home and I could be out of the pain and sadness. And I seriously thought about doing it myself but then I realized that I probably wouldn't go to heaven if I did. And then I realized my mom wasn't ready for me to leave yet. And my brothers and grandparents would be so sad and miss me a lot.
So anyway, moral of the story is that I didn't. There was always a bigger something worth living for. And I always thought about how sad my mom and friends would be if I was gone. And it always kept me here.
And truth be told, my life wasn't bad at all. I really can't think about what was so bad that would make me even consider ending it. And maybe that's why. Me just being hormonal and sad and maybe a little silly.
Thanks for always keeping me here.
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