November 10, 2010

30 Days of Truth: Day 10


I kinda think I'm not going to answer this one simply because the person I would be describing may or may not read my blog.  I can't be sure.  So for safety's sake, I think I'm taking a bye here.

I am a person with a HUGE heart.  I have a lot of sympathy for people.  More so in my younger years as I have lived and learned the ways of some people.  But I have always been very accepting of most people. Sometimes people who I really don't want to be friends with.  Sometime said people drain me dry with phone calls and having me listen incessantly while they go on and on about things I could seriously give two craps about.  So, sometimes I don't answer my phone.  Or respond to emails.  Or texts.  Fine.  The problem is that I am a bad, bad friend because sometimes I also forget.  Sometimes you are a true friend and I get a message and forget to call you back!  Or write you back!  I get easily distracted!  But what happens is sometimes I sit idly by as friendships drift away.  Sometimes I just don't want to go out.  Sometimes I don't want to talk.  I know, right?  I'm not sure why I do this. I love being social and I love to talk. But I learned from a very young age that I am not the girl who needs a companion to go to the bathroom.  I'm okay by myself sometimes.  It does not mean I don't value a friendship. I am just a moody female who likes to be alone sometimes.  And I will admit that since the invention of texting, my friendships have held up a lot better.  A lot!  And the thing that gets me the most is that the one or two people that I'm really trying to dis and get rid of don't seem to get the point.  Don't worry, dear friends, odds are that if you are reading this I am not talking about you!!  I'm almost positive this person doesn't frequent my blog...but you can't be too careful.  So I'm sorry if I'm a crappy friend!  I don't try to be!  I don't know what my problem is sometimes.  I guess is that what I'm trying to say here is I'm sorry for forgetting to call you  back.  Or text.  Or email.  I really do love my friends and even those I'd like to let slip away I will always have a soft spot in my heart for.  I'm just flawed.  So keep trying.  I know I suck sometimes but I really do love ya!! 


1 comment:

The Izatts said...

Well, I get the point...I know this is about me hahaha jk! Love you, and I think we are all "moody females" sometimes. It's out right as a women.